I dunnoe why i've tis kind of attitude....Yes, I pray and do all the normal things dat a Muslim shud do but somehow i would say dat my faith is still not concrete yet.....

Whenever some of my Pri or Sec friends see me now, they will from my exterior look, they can say dat "din, dh berubah ah".....bla bla bla

but its e inside dat is still burning,e inside part dat still need water to extinguish the flames inside and the water will be 'U'

IM stubborn!
IM sombong!
IM selfish!
and many more dat i cant name it or jus dat i didnt't realise it!!!

Im really fed-up wif myself for havin tis kind of attitude.....
I regret those days when i mixed wif bad-company and frm there i develop my own way of talking, treating others and the way i joke with them!!!

Rite now, I noe it's really hard for me to change but those little INPUTS dat u gave me will help me....PLease, I hope that Allah S.W.T will lay down the path for me to go thru and end the path as a Good Person.....

I need time to change bit by bit...and dont assume dat im talking bullshit cos i really2 want to change...I'm really sorry if along the way i've dissapoint u, make u upset and etc.......

I feel like i want to be with u that is y i listen to ur advice and it helps..
So and ya u give me input jus as i needed them...I jus need time.....

I've had enough of my disastrous past whereby need to support the family den juggle between friends and school....get into fights, do those nonsensical crime/things.....


So tis morning,will be schooling from 0930 - 1300hrs...
1400hrs - 1600hrs - CDN Practical after dat off to werk....

4 more days to Pay Day....